The Hurt Goes On...

A sadder tear I never wept
Until the day you left me
And my hot hurt heart
holds hot wet drops of salty
eye juice
Just near the surface of my sanity

A wetter face I never had
for I still dont really know
Why you dropped me
Suddenly stopped me,
robbed me, killed me, left me low
Why did you have to go?

A shattered dream I never had
before you broke my heart
I blame you yet I shouldn’t
I’m sure I played a part
but its no lie
My beloved agent of change

A restless mind I never had
so much the thoughts that whirl
And every time I see a place
perhaps a place we went
I die
Cos I love you so – why did you go?

A rational mind I never had
So much logic and reasoning why
you went? Because because because
But bloody “because” beats my brain
Underneath I
still have hurt with logicless sadness

A darker day I never had
No way can I think to work
or work to think my office role
My constant, churning thoughts of you
dominate
the dim darkness of my doom and gloom

A greater love I never had
the perfect potential that we had
seems so shameful and sad to lose
and so I feel I must always hope
for us
one day we’ll be ‘us’ again

(Written after a relationship breakup)

(c)John Torquil